This is me. I'm constantly thinking about the big picture. As a kid, I always seem to have a plan. When the plan fails, I fall with it. I need to stop for a moment, inhale and collect my thoughts rationally. It's the time again where the school fees are due soon. It's probably the worst feeling ever having to tell the father about the horrendous lump sum. Again, this year was another blow. A new front digit means added guilt. International fees, they are such an eyesore. Making things worst, my program fees are deregulated. I'm constantly reminding myself it's my senior year. I need to get it done and stop being a burden. I have to.